Pema's Inscription
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
IF I AM GRANTED A WISH
If I am granted a wish, I would wish to bring back my dad to
this beautiful world. I did walk right up to heaven and bring you back home dad.
I wanted you to watch us grow but of no choice, you left us, all alone in this
world. Our life has not been the same without you. I wish to sit with you and
share the hard times that I went through. I have lot more to share with you dad.
Missing you is the heartache that never goes away.
I miss you the most when something
is troubling me because you are the one whom I want to share my pain with and
you will be the one who will understand me. You mean a lot to me dad. I never
knew it would be this hard without you. I know million tears won’t bring you
back. All I can do it just sit and weep.
Monday, October 8, 2012
I STILL WANT TO SAY HI AND KNOW HOW YOU ARE
We met online, had a good time,
chatted again and became good friends. Do you ever recall the first day we met?
The day we became friends? I do and I will always remember that very day I knew
and will remember for the days to come. The
times we had together still lives fresh deep in my heart. It is good to reflect
and remember the good times we had together.
You said, you love me and i loved you too. I loved you, not your face, I loved
you, not your post, I loved you, not your wealth. I loved your <3HEART<3. There wasn't a day went by without missing you and without thinking about you. Trusted you
and loved you with all my heart. Came to
a situation where I couldn't skip a day without keeping in touch with you. Never
imagined that one day you would find a reason to leave me. Never knew you would
be so harsh towards my feelings. Your decision shattered me, made me go numb, felt the emptiness around me, broke
my heart into pieces and still didn't believe it. When i came back to sense, countless tears rolled down my check.
What about the promise you made? The
promise you made is still fresh in my mind. “I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU” You
shouldn’t make any promises if you can’t keep it. I always thought promises
must never be broken. May be some promises are meant to be broken, to let us
learn not to trust anyone again. May be i am not fortunate to have you in my life, indeed i am not blessed to be with you. Even the
emotional songs made me weep over again and again as though the lyrics were
written just for me.
If I could give you one thing in
life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then
you would realize how much you are loved and how much you are missed every
single day. You will know how much your silence hurts. It’s more painful than the harsh words spoken.
You found a reason to ignore me
indeed you never felt my love. I don’t have resentment or hatred towards you. You
are probably the one of the best things that happened to me in my life. Thank you
for coming in my life and leaving your footprints on my heart. All I am left
are the memories and a heart around your name. Hope there may be a day you
realize how true my love was.
Monday, September 17, 2012
This
is a sort of fate I call;
When
at a distance and unseen, in love of friendship we fall
From
nowhere we are being caught each other;
And
still it’s the fate it would bring us together
So
I say, if you and I walk hand in hand;
The
road along which we walk will never end
If it is for the love that we cry;
The
tears in our eyes will never dry
Countless
obstacles we may face;
Together,
we’ll clear it with god’s grace
Hand
on each other’s shoulder we shall catch;
And
our happiness we shall let others watch
In
each other’s arm we shall hold;
And
prove in friendship we are bold
We
shall fly with the wings of dove;
Keeping
faith in each other’s love
So
no matter for which race we belong;
We
shall sing together our friendship song
No
matter for any reason let other say;
Fruitful
and interesting shall be our day
No
matter for what others fight;
Shall
our relation be true and tight
In
this way, let’s pray our life comes to an end;
With
your body and mine bend
And
will see each others body with wrinkle
Into the night with
moonlight when stars above twinkle
<3 LOVE GIVES US A FAIRY TALE <3
In the middle of the sailing life, LOVE gives us a fairy tale.
It’s amazing how a person, who was once a stranger, can suddenly mean a world
to you: the world with whom you share your deepest secrets and rely on them. Having
someone, whom we LOVE around makes our life beautiful. And indeed, it makes us
feel alive and special when that person treats us in a loving way. We do
sacrifice everything just for the person we LOVE. LOVE is not a course to start
and finish within a few years: it is a lifetime course. But then it doesn’t
last long. It is so easy for a person to change his mind and then put an end to
the relation abruptly without even a thought.
It hurts the most when the person you love the most seems
carefree of your love and care. We can’t force any one to love us. But if
someone loves us truly, they will never find any reason to leave us. Anyone can
come into our life and say how much they love us and how much they care us. But
it takes someone really special to stay committed in our life and prove how
much they love us.
The toughest thing is to let go the person whom we love so
much; whom we once thought we can’t live without. When the person whom we LOVE
the most neglects us, we are forced to let him go. When we are together, we
will never realize how important each one could be to the other. When someone
leaves our life and when you miss the LOVE & AFFECTION of that person, then
only you will realize the importance of being together. But it would be too
late. Therefore, when we are
neglected by our loved ones, we should take it as a sign that tests our
loyalty, commitment and love. We must get through endless questions of this
test and take it to our understanding that it was only meant to be in the heart, not for a life time!
People who loves you
truly and who can see how beautiful your heart is, will never leave you.
Thursday, August 30, 2012
DEATHS AFTER DEATH!
It is very sad for me to recollect my moments
of togetherness with my Dad. I vividly remember of our happy life with him
guiding and caring us, his son and daughters, all the time. To the world he was
a simple man who stood the test of time, but to us, he was our world: a world
without which living beings would find no life.
People say life is like a novel, full of
suspense: you don’t know what’s going to happen unless you flip to the next page.
This is indeed an inescapable truth. My ‘happy life’ became a chapter of sheer
suspense in the novel of ‘our life’ when my Dad fell ill.
I remember vaguely seeing him for the last
time on his sick bed. I was eight years old then with my brother ten and sister
four. All of us were too young to realize that sickness was one of the signs of
death’s arrival. We never thought our Dad would desert us as he loved us more
than his own. He suffered from cancer; the disease which I later came to know
was incurable. Before we could grow tall to fetch him a cup of water in his
death bed, he left us alone in the world. The ‘merciless’ death took him, our
world, too early.
It was in the year 1992 when my Mom was 28. His
death brought a great blow to our lives. It affected our family so much. My Mom
had to run from early morning till late evening hunting for the square meals
for us. Everything shattered: the heaven burst away and hell faced us. In the
darkness, we lost our path and in fact the zest to walk.
We were trying to overcome the atrocities of death
of our beloved father when my mother-in-law (Dad’s sister) gave us another ‘death’.
Deaths after death! She, who was once amiable turned hostile and demanded my
father’s property. Even before my Mom could finish my Dad’s funeral, she
snatched my Dad’s briefcase that had some amount of money and demanded more.
When we refused to hand over the other properties, she returned with her men
bringing sickles and crowbars to uproot our home built by my father. She humiliated
us and treated us worst than animals. My Mom did not have anyone to lean on and
get supported. As a kid we were so innocent. The only thing we could do was to watch
our Mom running hastily around in tears suffering in the cruel hands of so-called
‘blood relatives’.
The case did not end with that humiliation. She
took us to the court soon after. My innocent Mom had to battle the case alone
for several months. It was finally decided that an arbitrator divided the
property between my Mom and my mother-in-law. The arbitrator however was bribed
by my mother-in-law and blatantly he divided the property (unequally) favoring
her. The scooter which my mother asked the arbitrator to offer to one of the
holy places was taken by him. We could do nothing. My fatigued mother was so
weak to breathe all these issues again.
When the head of your family dies, there are
many in the society who aspires to be your head. Without someone to lead the
family it is utterly difficult to defend the daily familial functions. You
would be living but just for the sake of living.
After my Dad’s death, I grew like a stunted
tree by the road side. I saw my friends with their Dad and wished for one. But
I had none. I often had to reconcile and rekindle my ‘belief’ that he has gone
forever and never will he come back even if I missed him for billion times. Today
I am decked with so many questions that are answerless. Every time I try to
hide them, my sadness of missing my Dad overpowers me. I wish he was still
around. I am missing the most wonderful relation in this world. No pain can
ever be stronger than the pain of missing one’s beloved. Even though we do not
see each other, he remains in my heart forever. And he will live in my memory
for the times to come.
‘I miss you and love you Daddy. You will
forever be homed in my warm heart!’
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